Today was alright. Worked for a bit then hung out with a friend for a while. We played some pool, drove around and talked for a bit. It was a good time. It ended up very disappointing though. Now to start, with most of my friends I do care about them but they make decisions and I don't feel obligations to guide them in their lives. People make their own choices....it's cool. I can give an opinion if asked but it won't change the friendship at all. One thing came up tonight though that kind of suprised me. It's not a big thing, but the girl I was hanging out with recently started smoking. It concerned me much more than I would have thought. Like, half my friends smoke, but still. For some reason I see a difference when girls do it. May be a double standard but whatever, I don't do it at least because of how I see it. I was really worried about her. I didn't want to see that. I know with some friends of mine we could look at a girl and say, "hey, she looks pretty good" but then if she's smoking it drops her down a bit. It's very unattractive. Seriously, not good. And this is someone I really care about and I see her starting with the stereotypical, "I don't do it often. I only do it when I hang with this person. I only do it if I drink". And yea.....I let drinking slide. If a girl drinks, it's preferable she doesn't....but if she does I don't really mind. With this person smoking I wanted to try very hard to just guilt her out of it. I don't want to say, "Man, that's incredibly unattractive", but I felt like I should of. I don't know where my opinion really would stand with her though since a lot of people she knows smoke too. People use "social smoker" as justification. Like only smoking around all their friends that do it makes it fine. We all know that it won't lead to addiction.....Fuck............people..............